Alyssa's ramblings...

My valentine.

I had an awesome Valentines Day! I woke up at 10:30 (that is the LIFE!), and commenced about five hours of cooking and cleaning. Really, it was fun! Then my husband came home, and we ate. Lots. :o) It was very good, and he loved every bite. In between courses, we danced and hugged. Afterwards, we watched some DVD’s – Envy and Sleepover. And then we went to sleep. It doesn’t sound like much, but my husband was just so loving and caring and wonderful to me. We were laughing and having so much fun. AND he bought me the Fighting Temptations DVD! I love this man. :o)

Lately, I’ve been having problems with frustration at other people progressing further than me in my area of calling. Sometimes it seems as if other people are getting heaps of opportunities in this area, and I’m just stagnating in the same place. One person in particular... I love this girl, she’s so extremely awesome, and deserves all the opportunities she gets. But I want them! Not because I’m selfish, but because I know that I could be doing so much more for God if I was just allowed to be closer to my calling. I have to keep reminding myself that it’s not because she’s a better Christian than me, or that she’s more talented than me, but that God’s timing is different for each of us. It’s not an easy task, though. Definitely not easy.

BUT, note to self: I’m unique and wonderful and no-one can take my place. :o)

Speaking of my calling, I want to have a baby. Apparently my husband and I will talk about it in October, and then he’ll put it off for another 6 months. So if all goes to his plan, I’ll give birth in about two years. If all goes according to my {very futile} plan, I’ll be giving birth in nine months. But that’s so not going to happen. *sigh* Oh well.

I think God wants to teach me a lesson about patience, and trusting His timing. :o) God, help me learn quickly!!! Ooops, I just realised that wanting to learn a lesson about patience quickly (especially with three exclamation marks) is a bit of a contradiction. Let me rephrase that. God, help me learn in Your perfect timing (which I hope is soon).

All things considered, I’m happy. :o) And tired. But I seem to be tired a lot. Solution? More coffee. Yay! I’m lovin’ it.

posted by Alyssa @ 2:59 PM